three wishes are all I need

2009-12-07T19:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO BLOG! OMG don't people blog anymore these days? Too busy with Twitter and Facebook? I can't believe Facebook is still surviving out there. I remember when it used to be cool la, cool people signed up la so that their profiles won't be viewed by them poklens. But alas, them poklens caught up with you supposedly cool people and is currently invading Facebook and Twitter. Beware! And hey, doesn't anyone wanna bring blogging back? Bring blogging back I say! I bet you no one's even reading this post until after like 2 weeks from now. I dare you to tag if you read this within two weeks :)

So anyway SCHOOL'S OVER. I can't believe I'm about to leave behind all those years in MS. I may not have been particularly ecstatic about school, but I won't say school was torture. As a whole, life in MS was pretty good :) Holiday life has been pretty dang good. I haven't really had those days where I'm like SUPER bored with nothing to do. In fact, my family is leaving for KK for 4 days tomorrow and weirdly enough, I passed the offer to come along.

Okay I'm kinda bored of this already. Catch me @ ziqahm.tumblr.com where I'm more emo :)
In the words of Paris Hilton (don't judge me cos i quote her :p), TTYN!

2009-09-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

2009-07-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

Dear Fat Little Monster :),

Happy Birthday!

I know I got to spend time with you this morning, but it truly breaks my heart to know that I wasn't present in the afternoon. I have images of you laughing and playing in my head which hurts me so much more.

I know this may not seem like a big deal, but it meant a lot to me to be there with you today. Hopefully years from now, you'll understand that things are very complicated.

I'm truly sorry and I love you very much :)

Love,
Your Kaka Ziqa.

P/S: I know you just turned 3 and have no chance of understanding this. But heck.

2009-07-05T13:28:00.002+08:00

You know when you're with a few friends, and like you get into this mood and atmosphere where everyone's like talking their hearts out with all their deepshit. And then someone asks you, "what's your story?"

Well I was with my two girls last night. Two girls who I tell absolutely everything to. We were in that moment, and they asked me. Truth is, I haven't got any stories.

I've got no story at all.

Oh yeah and fuck school. I wanna sleep wah cb.

Lots of butterflies rainbow hugs and kisses mwah mwah ugh ick ew not,
Z.

2009-06-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

:)

Yay to extended holidays. Boo cos I've got nothing planned.
Oh well, more sleep for me.
Cheerio!

2009-06-27T13:46:00.003+08:00

I had a conversation with a friend the other night about dreams. I was asked whether I thought dreams mean anything, and I said yes, I think they mean alot. But I also mentioned how I don't take account of my dreams anymore cos they're pretty much insignificant lately. Ironically, that same night I experienced a very interesting dream (nothing dirty okay), which lead me to look up about dreams.

I stumbled upon a few interesting facts.

Our dreams are frequently full of strangers who play out certain parts – did you know that your mind is not inventing those faces – they are real faces of real people that you have seen during your life but may not know or remember? The evil killer in your latest dream may be the guy who pumped petrol in to your Dad’s car when you were just a little kid. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces through our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for our brain to utilize during our dreams.

People who have smoked cigarettes for a long time who stop, have reported much more vivid dreams than they would normally experience. This is because of the withdrawal.

When you are snoring, you are not dreaming.

Studies have shown that our brain waves are more active when we are dreaming than when we are awake.

In a poll, 67% of Americans have experienced Deja Vu in their dreams, occurring more often in females than males.

Prior to the invention of the light bulb, people slept on average for 10 hours a night. Today, people average 6-7 hours of sleep per night.

Contrary to what may seem logical, vigorous exercising late in the evening raises certain hormone levels, along with your body temperature, both of which make falling asleep more difficult.

A person will actually die from a lack of sleep before they would from starvation. Starvation would take about two weeks whereas a lack of sleep would prove fatal after only 10 days.

You actually burn more calories sleeping than you do watching tv. (Haha, sleeping ain't all bad)

Research proves that what we learn right before going to sleep is actually remembered longer than what we learn at any other time.

And last, but not least,
Your dreams may reveal your secret desires and subconscious feelings.

2009-06-22T15:37:00.004+08:00

I don't wanna fill up my brain with thoughts of people or things right now. I don't wanna feel like I'm being rushed to do something. I don't wanna think. My head just wants to relax.

So I'm going with the flow.

Yep, that's what I'm doing.

But OMGWTF I CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS ROTF!!!!!!!!

I'm a bit of a Transformers geek, reading up on Autobots and Decepticons, old and new. Don't be surprised if you hear me shouting out "OH MY GOD IT'S THE DEMOLISHER!" to the screen tomorrow :D

2009-06-18T17:36:00.002+08:00

uicrutipaun's e183 *naf eily boLOVE ?????)? AAA says (11:19 PM):
*but wtf, its all so boring already.
veintitrés says (11:19 PM):
*hahaha
*dontcha just miss classic lnf hangouts?
uicrutipaun's e183 *naf eily boLOVE ?????)? AAA says (11:20 PM):
*yea i do!
*WHEN NO ONE WAS WITH ANYONE.
*AND WE WERE ALL SO GIDDDDDDY!
*AND SO ANNOYING.
asiyzzi. says (11:20 PM):
*yeah man
*what happened?
*did we grow older kah?
uicrutipaun's e183 *naf eily boLOVE ?????)? AAA says (11:20 PM):
*WE GREW UP
*the snail trail grew also
*then we became too cool.
asiyzzi. says (11:21 PM):
*yeah man. i think we became cool wah
*tapi boon, fyi, kau masih annoying

WHEN DID WE GROW UP???

But hey, maybe it's not so bad :)

2009-06-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

Dear diary,

Today marks the 10th day of yours truly being sick. Somehow, after a week I started coughing. And today it got worse. I'm starting to think it's not just a silly flu :S My coughs are ridiculously heavy, my nose keeps secreting disgustingly green mucus, I get mad headaches every once in a few hours, I feel weak down to my guts. You'll find that I look like this.

It's not a pretty sight.

Great, what a way to kick-start my holiday.

I hope I'll be well enough for BARA Team Building thingy tomorrow.

Much love and good night, Z.

2009-06-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.
6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls.
And sometimes..
All you need is one.

- Courtesy of One Tree Hill.

I spent an hour thinking about what to ramble about here. Then I realised, the answer was right in front of me. The bigger picture.

I mean, how could I not see? After all, that's what I've been doing these past few months. Shit happens to me alot, the drama comes often lately. And what do I do? Push it away, ignore it, avoid it. I take it in, but there's no output. A friend of mine has got this theory, that if something's broken and you leave it be, it'll eventually fix itself. I guess it's partly true in my case. I ignore the drama and eventually it dies down because I either forget about it or get used to avoiding. Is it really wrong for me to run away from it all?

But then again, would it matter if I tried to fix it earlier?

In some weird way, doing what I've been doing has shaped me to become a more carefree person. Maybe not super carefree but at least much more than before. Do I continue running away, or is it time for me to face the reality of it all?

So here it is, the bigger picture, is how I'm currently viewing my life as a whole (the bigger picture), and not in detail.

If that makes any sense to you.

2009-06-08T13:38:00.002+08:00

Break me out tonight
I wanna see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out

PS: One more paper, 19 more hours.
PPS: Happy birthday Ti :)

2009-05-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

veintitrés says (10:11 PM):
*aku sadar lah
*that it's reality
*i can't keep trying to fix all of it
*sometimes i just gotta let it be
.
.
.
R. says (10:14 PM):
*and we thought physics, boys, or other mumbo jumbos atu life
*hahahahha

I love you Rab :)

There'll always be a thin line between having hope and giving up. I'm on that thin line.

2009-05-22T10:08:00.005+08:00

I LOST MY IPOD.

but..
Gossip Girl made me happy.
One Tree Hill made me happy.
How I Met Your Mother made me happy.
American Idol made me happy.
Kris Allen winning American Idol made me happy.
Star Trek made me happy (gatal kirai, gatal kirai, gatal kirai!)

So maybe it's not all that bad.

Oh screw it, I want my Nanoooooooooooooooooo :(

Eric: Zeeq, how do you spell life?
Me: i-p-o-d.

Oh, sigh :(

Anyway. Kaka's being kind so she's lanja-ing us a Threadless shirt :) I was never good at making decisions so.. A little help? :D
(click on the pics to view what the shirt looks like)

Adieu, Z.

2009-05-15T14:39:00.002+08:00

E-X-A-M SEASON :(

Okay, lemme just put aside all my books and notes and past year papers to rant, just a little :) I've got 2 important papers next week, and I can't help asking myself, how far has my preparation been so far on these 2 papers? Sadly, I haven't worked as much on Business than Physics, but then again I haven't worked so much on Physics either. Ugh, I think I'm starting to panic :( I guess I'm just gonna settle on trying Business AS in November again? Hmm.

Now putting exams aside, I'm starting to miss our outings and parties and DVD marathons and sleepovers. It's been aaaaaaaaaages since we had a proper hangout, just us, laughing our asses off at the silliest things and taking uber-loaded pictures :). I see everyone everyday in school but exam stress has been kicking each and every one of us. Sigh, I miss everything, I miss you guys :(

I CANNOT wait till 9th June (Okay maybe 10th for Chem-ers and 11th for Ki :p) onwards! Post-exams sound soooooooo good right now. Driving (okay Zy, Eric, Nigel, I don't suck okay!!!), holidays (wheeeee~~ hahaha), and most most most importantly, SUMMER! :D Which equals to scholars and blockbuster movies! :D

Okay now putting THAT aside, I realise that even after exams, I've prolly still got alot to do. Hakim and I seriously need to start preparing and gathering material for '09ers Graduation magazine.

And most importantly, I have to make choices, decisions, that will definitely shape my future. Right now I'm just lost, torn between course choices and making the right decision. I guess what's holding me back is that I don't know what I want to do in the future, I can't see myself in the future. I've got no dream, no passion, nothing that'll drive me to make a firm choice on what to do in uni. And thus, I've got no idea what Uni I wanna go to, which means I've got no entry requirements to achieve yet, which means I've got no aim in my grades. See how it all dismotivates me in studies? It's nearly half the year and I need to make a decision kin kin. Someone help guide me? :(

Okay okay no going emo now Ziq.. Haha glad I let all that out of me. Time to bury myself in notes, books and past year papers. Cheerio people. P/S I'm not emo :)

2009-03-25T14:43:00.000+08:00

"But you choose whether or not you open your heart to love.."
Said Julian.

Hi, I've been enjoying my last few days of being 17 :)

♥

2009-03-20T12:35:00.001+08:00

Good morning loverssss! Okay maybe not morning, good noon? I woke up at the early hour of 8.30 this morning, but being the lazyass that I am, stayed in bed till 11.30 just listening to music and enjoying the warmth of my sweet sweet bed in this chilly room of mine.

I blog today cause of one reason, and one reason only: The long-awaited HOLIDAYYYYYYYYY is finally here! :D
I've got the weekend all planned up now. I think today I'll be cleaning up my room, it looks worse than a kandang babi foshooo. I've also been downloading some old supposedly good movies that I haven't seen, and I'm about to start watching Privileged once I get 'em from Far/Zy. And also, a certain best friend of mine is coming homeeeeeeeeee :D A good catching up is in store for us all.

Alright, the fat bitch is off to search for food. I bid you adieu, and a happy holiday to all! :D

P/S: Happy Birthday Sarah :D

2009-02-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

Notice what they're doing in the reflection haha :)

Anyway, I know this song has been heard by a lot of people after the recent Twilight hype, but many don't really understand what the lyrics are about..

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

It just basically asks, if I die or if we part ways, would you remember me for all the bad things or mistakes I've done, or would you remember me for all the good I've done? And with that you sort of wonder don't you, if you've left a good or bad mark on people. If you've got reasons to be missed. Great song I must say :)

So anyway, life's been a bitch but we all know that right? I'm just so tired of drama right now and I've been busy with school (tests and friggin presentations! but less homework heheh) and BGIC. That and a perfect balance of outings or group convos too.

Happy 25th National Day, Brunei!

Have a good month or so till my next update :D

2009-02-03T20:52:00.001+08:00

HI I'VE BEEN BUSY! Results, birthdays, outings, family gatherings, walkathons, UK fairs, school, decisions, school, school, school! Here are some pics :)

The lil buissss

We played Monopoly Here & Now the one using credit card! :D

My kangaroo pengsan cos it had to pay 8MILLION to Far! HAHA

And the winner is...

And the loser is....

P/S: Happy 1 Year Anniversary R & K! Love you two!

2009-01-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

About a month or two ago, my laptop started switching off randomly whenever it overheats. I've done little things to try to solve that problem, like preventing my laptop air thingy (tempat the air keluar) from being blocked, or using my hairdryer set to cold whenever it overheats (yes, ferreal! :p). But most recently, a few days ago to be exact, I switched my laptop on and within 5 minutes later it friggin switched off! Switched it on again and TWO minutes later it shut off again! I googled it and apparantly it's quite common among acer laptops. The cooling fan's covered with dust so whenever the laptop heats up, the cooling fan can't cool it. Ya dig? It's so annoying *ziq*

Oh hey happy chinese new year to those celebrating! I'll be anticipating the partial solar eclipse tomorrow, maybe i'll get super powers like on heroes. My ideal superpower would be to eat as much as i want without getting fat :D

And happy advanced 9th birthday to my not-so-little brother! Your present's gonna be so awesomeeeeeee :D and a little advice from your big sister: Don't break hearts. Save those little girls from turning out like me (and Izzy), super jablai!

Alrightey, there's my attempt to save this blog. Cheeeers now :D

2009-01-17T17:48:00.005+08:00

I'd like to wish Miss Aqilah Harooon aka QILLER ASS a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! She turned 17 yesterday, and don't say you feel old Ki cause if you're old, what are we?

As much of a bimbo I am, I can't beat you there :p Kau natural bimbo that we all love! I love you Ki! You and your Victoria's Secret, your obsession to be thin, your calorie expertees. I'll stand by you through anything baby girlllllllllllllllll ;) Thanks for the awesomest December holiday ever! Yang aku spend dengan kau and Ti most of the time, watching chick flicks and reading Breaking Dawn until late night. Haha love you!

Happy weekend everyone! I'm beat. I think I'm gonna make use of the weekend redeeming my energy. Haha we'll see. ARRIVEDERCIII (:

2009-01-12T15:29:00.002+08:00

Best motion picture, Best director, Best screenplay, Best original score at the Golden Globe Awards '09.

I WANNA WATCH THIS!

2009-01-10T22:21:00.001+08:00

i've got a poster of...........

HAHAHAHA thanks naz.

2009-01-08T17:54:00.002+08:00

Blast From The (Recent) Past

This post goes out to Izzy and Rabi, my two most avid readers. At least, i think so.

I find this picture funny, because Zul's facing the other way but he's in view the most!

:D

No wonder you're still single Zy, nada orang mau kawin tu wedding fund mu sikit ah! HAHA.

Does anyone miss the duck? Haha.

RABI THE CAT HAHAHAH

I miss Ki in this uniform!

Haha maths class! I misssssssss!

Monday Blues and PE.

HAHAH bizz whizz caught!

That's me, pigging out on my malteaser's cookies hahahaha :D

Hospital phase

I don't know, random hahah.

HAHAHAHA

Izzy's "not imaginary" GD phase

Rab's room! First time we used jablai :p Only that time it was me and Zah hahah.

Siapa dapat spot tumbui? :p

DeRoyalle

HAHA Hakim's old crappy phone!

His birthday

Ki's last day

Is there where the marriage started? I think so :p

Am currently reading 5 People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom. I recommend Tuesdays With Morrie to those in need of snapping back into reality, to remind you that life's too short. Well I've got homework and current affairs to do now. Adios!

2009-01-05T14:20:00.001+08:00

HOLY COW, WE'RE SENIORS!

And I'm in the GP class of hell :(

P/S: Happy birthday Sils!

2009-01-03T13:22:00.006+08:00

School's starting the day after tomorrow, and I can't say I'm not excited. I really miss our bench. And.. Well. that's basically it hahah. Oh hey it's my first post of '09, I just noticed. I promised Hakim and emo post a couple of weeks (months? I don't remember), but I'm not up for it at the mo'. I mean really, who'd start the year emo-ly? :p

So anyway, I'm really glad I spent the last 9 days of '08 well. In fact, I also spent the first 2 days of '09 pretty awesomely. This is actually my first afternoon in 2 weeks I'm spending at home without my friends hahah. What more than to spend the time with the family, eating buttered crabs and nutella cheesecake, watching dvds and playing credit card monopoly :)

I've got pictures of New Years Eve here, and we went to the beach on the 1st but I was forgetful enough to forget inserting the memory card into Far's camera. Ah well some things never change :p

Far's starter.

oh heavennnn ♥

lasagnaaaa

cooking mama!

Hahahha orang sibuk main Wii.

I don't know which is more interesting, the giant Hershey's Kisses or Tiqah's new awesome phone.

I'll be sending Gee off later. And Izzy and Nazim will be arriving home today so that's something I should be looking forward to :D

Arrivederciiiiiiiiiiii! :D

P/S: TV shows start next week. Yay :D

2008-12-31T12:04:00.000+08:00

We shall bid farewell to the setting sun today. For tomorrow, the rising sun would not only mark the start of a new day, but of a new month, and most importantly, a new year.

2008 was both the best and worst year of my almost 18 years of living. A lot I have gained and lost. New things learnt from mistakes I made. A hundred million memories for me to keep. It's like.. Riding an award-winning roller-coaster. Where the highs are too high and the lows are too low (if you get what I mean), yet thrilling and unforgettable. But like a wise friend said to me once, life's a rollercoaster, but your friends are the ones riding with you (something like that). So big, huge, humungous, gigantic, thank you hugs and kisses to everyone who've helped me out in any way this year, tiny parts or big parts, whoever. Shoutout to Lnfs, nimah and the shassssss nazim, you guys made a difference and i love you guys ♥

And with that, adieu 2008, hello 2009 :) Cheers to an awesome 2008, and hopefully an even awesomer 2009. Cheers to turning 18, to (hopefully) throwing a huge bash, to being old enough and elligible for a driver's license, to A levels, and everything else in between.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!

Hearts all over the world tonight.
Love, Ziqah :D

2008-12-30T23:05:00.003+08:00

The tension of oppsites?
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
.....
So which side wins, I ask.
"Which side wins?
"Love wins. Love always wins."
- Tuesdays With Morrie

Because now, is the perfect time to reflect.
♥

[edit] Now I shall leave you with a few pictures of my last few weeks of 2008.

(don't mind my mua karas)

Arrivederci (:

2008-12-27T02:55:00.000+08:00

It's nothing much, but enjoy! I've got a couple more but I'll save it for next time.

VERY MUSYKIL AHHH :D

GOODNIGHT :)) (double chin heheh)

2008-12-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

kjnsdkjqnkjqnqwniq I hate ants.

Yes, I'm still alive. Proper update ummmm.. Not anytime soon. Sorry Zah :p Catch y'all soon. Cheeeeeeeeeers!

2008-12-18T20:54:00.002+08:00

I love you :D

The Ultimate Jablai Test! As answered by Izzy and Sar :p I never get bored of this, it's so funny!

Are you male or female?
Free Loop - Daniel Powter
HAHAHAHAH. I'm not something free, i swear!

Describe yourself!
Honey - The Hush Sound
Like honey? Very sweet? :p

What do people feel when they're around you?
Fix You - Coldplay
They wanna fix me? Cos I'm so jablai? HAHA.

Describe your current relationship.
Fuckin' In The Bushes - Oasis
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! PALOI.

Where would you like to be now?
So Here We Are - Bloc Party
HAHA. Here? :p

How do you feel about love?
Stop And Stare - OneRepublic
I have to stop and stare! Meaning: go thoroughly? Hahahaha. Whatevsss.

What's your life like?
Big Casino - Jimmy Eat World
Full of losses and wins :D

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Be Yourself - Audioslave
Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Hahahaha. Boring.

Say something wise :
Easier To Lie - Aqualung
HAHAHA. Maybe :p

If someone says "is this okay?"
Sad Song - Oasis
HAHAHAH sad banar jua.

How would you describe yourself?
You're So Right For Me - Rooster
HAHAHAH I'm so right for myself! Paloi. Jablai :'(

What do you like in a boy?
Iris (Acoustic) - Goo Goo Dolls
Eyes? :)

How do you feel today?
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
"Do you feel better now, as she falls to the ground?" Hahahahha I don't know, irrelevant.

What is your life's purpose?
Must Get Out - Maroon 5
HAHA. To get out of Brunei!

What is your motto?
Up In The Sky - Oasis
Ooooooooooooookay, hahaha. To fly? :)

What do your friends think of you?
Lies - BB
HAHAH yapehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I don't lie!

What do you think of your parents?
Photographs and Memories - Jason Reeves
Awwwwwww :')

What do you think about very often?
I Miss You - Blink 182
Hahahaha WHO exactly??? Jabber kaliah.

What is 2 + 2?
It's Not Over - Daughtry
Obviously, hahah.

What do you think of your best friend?
Sleeping With The Light On - Busted
HAHAHAH THAT IS SOOOOOOOOO RABI! :D

What do you think of the person you like?
Unsaid - The Fray
Unsaid because there is no one hahaha.

What is your life story?
Life Is Beautiful - Vega4
Awwww :)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Perfect Situation - Weezer
HAHA I wanna be perfect :)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Untitled - Simple Plan
HAHAHHA! Sah tah jablai.

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers
Esehhhhh. Course I will :)

What will they play at your funeral?
Soul Meets Body - Death Cab For Cutie
Oh wow, very ironic.

What is your hobby/interest?
To Make You Feel My Love - Josh Kelley
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

What is your biggest fear?
Saturday Morning - Eels
"Saturday morning, who's gonna play with me?" HAHAHA. Jablai :p

What is your biggest secret?
Before It's Too Late - Goo Goo Dolls
Hmmmmmmm. "I wandered through fiction to look for the truth"?

What do you think of your friends?
A Good Man - BB
HAHAHA. Errrrrrrrrrrrrr :p

What will you post this as?
From The Start - Ryan Cabrera

2008-12-16T13:21:00.007+08:00

Finally a day off :) Past few days have been awesome, if I could I'd have my whole holidays like that every day but ah well.

I'm in no mood for a wordy post so I'm gonna leave you with a LOT of pictures.

Beach

Haha Hakim's burnt macaroni.

OTP with Rab :)

Miri

HAHA she gets it from her sister ;)

She wanted an eye check too.

Izzy's

NYAMAN! My burger consisted of: Bun, egg goreng, lettuce/cabbage (whatever), beef patty, cheese, chicken patty, lettuce, egg goreng, bun. And mayo and chilli sauce in between. FAT!

Izzy punya paling fat! Hahahaha :D

Seems like I've been filled with spontaneous plans lately, and they've been awesome. It's only 1ish now, who knows what might happen later ;)

I hope to see the lovers soon. I miss you guys.

23♥

2008-12-14T05:48:00.000+08:00

I finally threw my message in a bottle away.
But the waves brought it back.
Threw it for the second time and it came back.
Hakim threw it for me and it came back.
Just as we were leaving, a couple of kids went at took it.

Attempt failed.

I shall post more pics soon when the internet ain't so crappy. Till then, a jolly good Sunday to you.

2008-12-12T23:17:00.014+08:00

Because I'm weird like that :)

Suri Ki :p

Besamikuloooooooooooooooooo!

Ki turned into this cause ia makan banyak Pamelo :D

Holidays have been alright. Boredom level at about 20% only I guess :p Went to watch Twilight yesterday with the gang and it's safe to say I haven't really fallen into that Edward Cullen trap. I just love his charm, that's it. Today's been fun too and tomorrow and Sunday shall be too. How've you been? :)

Muchos gracias for these great few weeks, LnFs ♥

xoxos** and love, Ziqah.

P/S: Happy Birthday Babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ♥ :)

2008-12-09T01:18:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY HAKIM!

HAKIM MURSIDI! Mister Charmless. Kimmy kimmy moreeee. The second youngest in the lot. You're like the Joey of the group, unintentionally funny, dramatic. I don't know why you're being so dramatic about being 17, that makes all of us feel old you know. I miss Maths class days, You and I and Zah and our therapy sessions and everything. I'm gonna miss having Maths with youuuuu!

Kim, we all know you're mister drama king of LnF. This is what happened last week in McD: Team E La Vita was freshly tired from their third day of EV and agreed to meet us C'est La Vie. So we ventured off to McD. Hakim had ordered his Filet-O-Fish meal, and we waited and waited for it to arrive. So when it finally did, to Hakim's suprise, the burger was really small. And then he goes, while looking at the people at the counter, in a very dramatic tone..
"You guys.... disappoint me"

That's Hakim! Hahahaha. Anyway, I've said this once and I'm not afraid to say this again. I don't think I can live without Hakim. I mean seriously.. Him and his drama and attention seeking ways. The kind of things he does unintentionally, but makes me laugh all the time! Even him talking in his most serious tone makes me laugh. You make my days Kim :) And this is where you go, "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!" Haha :)

Hakim's always been that friend with a shoulder to cry on. Always there when I wanna talk with open arms and open ears. Always on I could talk to about my problems, especially my most recent one. So thank you Hakim. I hope you have a great one, I hope you had a great night. I hope you have a great week, I hope you have a great life! Cos after all, you deserve it! Happy birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D

ANYHOO. Here are pictures of last night's steamboat dinner :D It was hard narrowing down 337 pictures to only 25!

GUESS WHO'S BACK???? :D

Steamboatttt!

Work itttttttttttt Far!

It was supposed to be a chongsam, but Far said it looked like a winter coat. Hahah.

I personally like this pic :D

Milanggggggggg :D

JABBERS! Love this pic too.

Hahahaha look at his expression.

Remember Ki's nickname dulu, HSBC? Haha! :D

Last, but not least. Something feasty for your eyes now.. :)

ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS :D

HAHA. GOOODNIGHT NOW :D

2008-12-07T23:37:00.001+08:00

A couple of pictures Far uploaded and some from EV's photogs I found on facebook.

McD heavennnnn.

Hahahaha jabbers in action.

I love Izzy :D

HAHAHAH this is what jablais do. Seriously.

OH HOW I WISH! HAHA.

I miss the girl on the left! She's been cutting her hair and studying Maths P3!

I miss the dude in the middle too =/ No one's fatter than me here now.

And I miss this girl sleeping over at my place and always following me home!

Happy Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims out there. Tomorrow's gonna be all about sacrifice and meat. But honestly, I already had way too much meat that can last me a whole week just now :S Nonetheless, Hari Raya Haji is Hari Raya Haji, so enjoy all the meat!

I've got a book to read :) Nick Hornby's High Fidelity. Anyone who's got Tuesday's With Morrie or 5 People You Meet In Heaven kind enough to lend it to me?

Bah I'mma go. Cheerio.

2008-12-06T22:09:00.001+08:00

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2) Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, Just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editting.
4) Post these instructions with your picture.
5) Tag 7 people to this.
6) No tags back!

I'm not tagging anyone.

I eat when I don't have to. I have nothing better to do than to be stuck infront of my laptop, be it on my desk, on my bed, downstairs, wherever. I should be helping out and spending more time with the family. I am annoyed that my laptop keeps switching off whenever it gets warm. I am annoyed that the wireless keeps switching off and I have to keep restarting. I am still struggling to pick up and align the broken pieces. I am pissed at myself for uncontrollable spending. I am annoyed by the ants that keep coming into my room and on my table and everywhere. I signed in to my old email account today after a year or two, to find out no one misses me.

Story of my life.

Nah I'm not that emo. Went to Honda showroom today to pick up Kaka's new ride. It's awesome, and the thing I love most about the car is the iPod cable to the sound system. Pretty awesome. Then I went over to Far's to play Wii. Boxing was awesome. I imagined the opponent to be..... And I won. Like a gazillion times. HAHA.

Rab, my sister's car license plate nya KR ;) I bid y'all adieu!

2008-12-04T17:38:00.004+08:00

I wanna write, write my heart and soul out on numerous pieces of paper. Just letting it all out. And then I'm gonna put the papers in a glass bottle, and throw it out to sea. :)

A huge huge congratulations to E La Vita for making it as champions! Glad I was there during your winning moments and I look forward to the celebration :) And they say, "that's life!" Hence the names C'est La Vie and E La Vita!

I believe in Karma. Do you?

2008-12-02T19:32:00.002+08:00

Life's a real bitch, don't you think? One minute I'm up and running, next thing i'm crushed again. I just wish I had the power to pause and unpause or better yet, to permanently stop feelings. December is now dead to me, give me a sappy romantic movie so i can cry my eyeballs out okay?

2008-12-01T21:26:00.013+08:00

Heyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! The past few days have been.. Different. Let's start with Saturday, when I had the girls (and Zul) over for a sleepover. The girls had a fit going through my big (and I mean BIG) box of goodies, very fattening you know. And then we watched a dvd and a concert dvd. And us being jablai.... Well just take a look at the pics later on. And then we webcammed with Rabi, and at the same time with Sabri as well. Later on was nothing much.

See, FAT!

UNO!

Hakim calls this the love chair.

HAHAHAHA Izzy tagged this as Haziqah Marzuke and Eric Teo Eng Sheng on Facebook! Very funny zy, very funny.

Hahaha dorang in heaven pasal banyak mee.

We mixed everything and made fruit punch! Turned out pretty nice.

Hahaha cute jua zy.

Jabber picture #1

Jabber picture #2

Jabber picture #3

Pizza lovinnnnn

Lowa zah.

Candid hahahahha sorry :p

The next morning, we had to wake up at 5 and went off to Yayasan for the Explore Venture. Tiring but fun. Ummm yeah pics.

Ti calls me bitch long legs hahaha ;)

Sixteen sixteen. Haha Wildcats!

C'est La Vie is pronounced as SAY La Vie okay!

He also took some very disturbing pics.

The Haruns! Ki said, "we love obama" hahahaha.

Eyahhh :)

LnF!

UICs were there too

Jabbers yo :)

After getting through the finish line. 2nd and 3rd of purple :)

Hahaha donut lovers and jabbers at the front ;)

Dayum you be ha'

And my fave pic of this bunch!

And that afternoon, the lovers all came back to my place. We watched Madagascar 2 on DVD where ALL of us fell asleep. Hahaha. Later on, we were all bored and kept chaging DVDs without finishing them. Far with her Accidental Husband, Hakim with his Golden Compass which we don't get, and then Mamma Mia. It was 3pm and we had absolutely nothing to do until one of us suggested going to Kampong Ayer since it was near. And so we did! Half and hour boatride didn't cost much, plus it was awesome and windy and very stress-relieving :)

:)

You look cute Kim.

Skinny bitch/Slutty bitch hahahha :D Love you! Cheer up!

SOAS Mosque.

I like this picture. Ada happy vibe :D

And this is my fave pic of this bunch! Eyaaaaaaah model dari Milan kaliah.

Had Day 2 of Explore Venture again this morning. Challenges weren't tough but very tiring lah. We were pretty close to getting in but sadly we didn't make it through. Ah tough luck, nevermind, I've got other things to worry bout aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand good luck E La Vita and XDMZ :)

Followed Far back home where Far and I cooked lunch! And then we played Spongebob Monopoly for 4 fricking hours. Zul made me bankrupt plus I was bored of it already hahaha. Watched World Trade Centre later on, Ti and I wanted a movie that would make us cry but HAHA it made Far cry instead!

ANYWAY. It's JUST the first of December and I'm bored outta my guts already! I've been brainstorming on what interesting things to do in Brunei and so far I've got... none. I just realised how all of my friends have things to do this holiday like fly off (majority) to KK, UK, KL, Singapore, Taiwan, Aussie, or IN UK, or busy with driving lessons (very editorial), or busy with Noble Laurettes training, or busy with girlfriend being home from UK, or reading fanfics (coughthejabbercough), or orang kawin and pindah rumah (hahaha ring a bell?), or home for 2 weeks only.

And that leaves me with... NOTHING TO DO. Hahaha I need a new hobby! Or new friends.. Hahaha esenku.

Okay I'm tired. Cheeeers people and have a merry merry holiday. I hope y'all don't die of boredom cos that'll be MY job. Goodbye and good day!

2008-11-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

You've always believed in equality in many places, always in the middle of two things. But something shiny drives you to take a step. In one set of eyes, you're a step forward. In another set of eyes, you're a step backwards. After countless hearings of hesitation and persuasion (or maybe just your conscience speaking), you finally open up. You're comfortable. You take more steps in the same direction.

Before you know it, you lost yourself. Buried deep in the heart of those unworthy of you. Of course there was a reason to stay equal. Now there's no turning back..

Dirty Sexy Money is so awesome. I love Nick's 'owned you, bitch' face :D

I'm missing you :(

Love, 23.

2008-11-25T22:14:00.002+08:00

I meant to update a really cool post but never got round to finishing it so, I guess I'll leave that for tomorrow.

I just wanted to post this up:

CESC FABREGAS NEW ARSENAL CAPTAIN!

Looking mighty fine and VERY bad boy :) with his sister!

Captain Fabregas leading the way during training for tonight's CL match :)

Laugh it off baby, laugh it off.

HE IS AWESOME KTHNX!

♥

2008-11-25T12:34:00.006+08:00

Tagged by Nimah. I'm gonna do a little different version later but for now, I'll stick to the original :)

“The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer.”

1. The age at my next birthday

2. A place I’d like to travel to

One of the many places :)

3. A favourite place

:)

4. A favourite thing

5. A favourite food

6. A favourite colour

7. The city you live in

8. the city I was born in

9. A nickname you had

More than 10 years ago by Kaka but now still by Mirul and Awie!

10. College Major

or

11. Name of first love

:)

12. A bad habit

13. A hope for 2009

:D

Will blog again later. Cheeeeerios.

2008-11-23T19:36:00.005+08:00

Hiyaaaaaaaaaaa! I know I'm like 2 days overdue but EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR! I know some people like to rest after exams but me, I don't know, I just feel like being constantly out and about hahah :D I've got plenty of time in December for rest when people start to fly off!

So on Friday, I stayed in school abit after the exams and went straight out after that till malam. Yesterday, had the Teacher's Day celebration in school, which was so awesome by the way! Pictures coming.. Had a bit of time in the afternoon to catch this week's TV shows (which reminds me, I haven't finished watching OTH hahah!). Then I went out again at night. And today.. Been out the whole day till now :) Yeah that pretty much sums up my absofuckinglutely FREE weekend :D

Here are some pics of yesterday's celebration. Credits to Hakim for lending me the camera for the day ;)

Minnie and KP :)

Mickey and Minnie!

You know who to spot!

The emcees.

Santi was there too!

The male teachers heheh.

One of the games.

HAHA Mr.Meer and the boy!

My fellow jabber doin' her thang ;)

Fat boy participating hahaha.

Congrats on the success you guys.

I really wanna watch Quarantine. Anyone?

OKAY I'M BEAT AND BROKE!

Hakuna matata everyone! :)

I bid you adieu..

2008-11-21T10:33:00.002+08:00

I amuse myself.

It's 10.30AM, and I'm 5 hours away from freedom. You might say, why is she making such a big deal out of this? Well, how would you feel when every other level in your school, everyone who're having big exams, are done with theirs? Even some of your friends are done with their exams. And you have one paper left, one MCQ paper, all because of one subject. *Insert THE look emoticon*.

I can't wait.

xoxoxos**(hahah), Ziqah.

P/S: What's up Rab? Talk to me bebehhhh.

2008-11-18T11:16:00.003+08:00

Name? Ziqah M :)
Where were you born? Brunei
Whats your mothers name? HH :)
How old is your dad? Coming to 47?
Are your parents still married? No.
Do you get sick a lot? I used to. Not so much anymore.
Have you been in love? Yes.
....how many times? Once.
How old are you? 17 :D
Have you ever shot a gun? Actually, I have. During Kem Q :D
When is your half birthday? Sometime in September?
Do you ever eat apples with peanut butter? No, is it good?
What is one thing that you cant stand? People who don't flush.
Do you know any naughty words in another language? Hahaha no, but I'll remember to ask around.
Are you good at jumping rope? You could say so ;)
Are you happy? I could be happier.
When was the last time you littered? I'm not sure, but whenever it was, ssshhhh don't tell Zah :p
What was the last thing you stepped on by accident? Nothing gross I hope.
When was the last time that you tripped over nothing? HAHAHA! That sounds like me, but I really don't remember when hahah.
Ever climbed to the top of the stairs and realized you need to go back down? HAHAHA all the time!
When was the last time you sneezed? Yesterday I think.
What is your favorite thing to eat/drink when you are sick? Mmmmm hot chocolate :)
Do you watch spanish gameshows? I wish to hahah.
How tall are you? 5"4 ish I think? or 5"3.
Why did the chicken cross the road? Because it got chased by a hungry Ziqah.
Do you think Chris Brown is hott? He is!
How do you like your eggs? Scrambled with a little black pepper, mayo and maybe some cheese. Mmmmm :)
Have you ever walked into a door, or wall right next to the doorway? HAHA no but I could, someday.
what is one swear that you find yourself saying alot? Shit.
Finish the lyrics: Oops I did it again..... I'm procrastinating.
What do you want right now? You :)
If any animal could eat you which one would you want it to be? You ;) HAHA apakan. I don't know hahah.
Do you think burping is gross? Inda.. Hahah.
Ever licked a battery? HAHA ummm why would I?
Do you like to play with the hot wax from a candle? omg yes!
When making cookies, are you tempted to just eat the raw cookie dough? OMG YESSSSS ALL THE TIME! And I don't JUST get tempted, I actually eat the dough hahah.
What do you want to name your child? Boy and girl. We've had this conversation with them lovers but I never really got to sticking to one hahah.
When was the last time you considered yourself lucky? Why? Everytime cause I've got awesome friends :)
Are you one who dresses to impress? Nahhh, I dress for comfort. Maybe a little lah :p
Do you like the taste of envelopes? Ewwww no.
Can you name 5 brands of chewing gum? Wrigley's, Mentos, i dunno.
What is one thing under your bed right now? Dust!

I need to study! Sheesh.

One of these days, I shall.

2008-11-16T10:08:00.002+08:00

I've been having a good weekend so far, a very tiring weekend in fact, and I've got an awesome Sunday ahead. But even as I've got sooo many things to laugh at, sooo many things to smile about, and sooo many people to make my day, I can't help but feel a little emptiness. I don't mean to sound emo but yeah you know I am hahahah.

So anyhooooo, I've been going car-shopping with my family these past few days and weeks (not for me though). And it really got me excited to turn 18 in the next few months! Yesterday went to a couple of showrooms and every car Kaka would wanna try, me and Eizzad would follow with. Sitting on the driver's seat, passanger's seat and the back seat, judging how spacey and how many compartments it has. Mom says, "yang kan membali kereta ani macam tiga orang tepulang!" Haha ;)

And I went to the DST Carnival thing last night with them Lovers (pictures I hope Izzy will update soon :p). We didn't really have much to do there, but I can't say it was boring. I think the total Utt-seeing totally compensated for us not doing anything after seeing him. If that even makes sense... Haha.

And speaking of pictures, remember when I said I got my camera back? And have you wondered why I haven't been taking any pictures? That's cause I can't find my stupid memory card. I remember I moved it from the original place, and kept it somewhere thinking it would be "safe". But the problem is, I can't friggin remember what that "safe" place is! Me and my memory. Sheesh.

Okay I'm rambling.. Rambling on a Sunday morning. NOT GOOD!

Have a great Sunday!

Much love, Ziqah :)

2008-11-15T22:54:00.001+08:00

:)? :(?
Whatever.
I'm knackered.

2008-11-14T13:07:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JEER!

Let's do a little reminiscing shall we?

My days with Jeer go waaaaay back from form 1 or 2 was it? Those Kapak Gang days. I don't really recall how I met you, but I think it was through Rab/Maz was it? Those form 2 days where we'd go to the canteen, get mee goreng (mmmmmm) and eat at Rab's PINK class! We'd always leave the food under container after the table. Haha. Then sembahyang at the surau, and hanging out at the toilet downstairs before class.

After the ugama times, we weren't so close.. But I'd still see her from time to time when I visit her class to see Dinah (who I miss btw!). But then during form 4, Jeer were in the same class as Rab, Tiqah, Milang and Zul and our classes were next to each other, so I saw them quite alot. Then after O'levels, we had this nightly group convo thing with Jeer and the rest and had "the circle" outings and it was alllll fun! :D

Jeer.. She likes football. No let me rephrase that, she's OBSESSED with football and everything to do with Liverpool! She used to pwn us all with her netspeak during group convos. And she was the one who kept changing and experimenting with fonts sampai si Bokh selalu marah cos it kept clashing with his or anyone of us'. She has a thang for Spanish men (and Gerrard).

And there's one more story I'd like to tell.. This was sometime last year. Us girls were at Izzy's, planning her birthday party.. So Zy was typing out the invitations, and asked us what we wanted to be named on the invitations. So Jeer being the football freak, wanted her name as Jeer Alonso at first. But she kept adding and adding names (mind you, it took awhile!) until it became...
JEER MIGUEL PERIKO ALONSI JAY ZEE OLANO ETUNG ALBORNOZ RODRIGUEZ GERRARDO@RONALDO!
HAHAHAHA. I still remember because I took a video of her! Hahahahaha.

JEER I MISS YOU! I haven't see you since.. Rab flying off?? Was it? Man that was alooong time ago! SEE YOU SOON! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYY!

emoworldlife! hahaha

Love, Ziqah.

P/S: Your true colours are beginning to reveal itself.. And they're bad colours.

2008-11-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA :D

Z.

2008-11-09T00:36:00.001+08:00

Had a normal night out with the lovers (but less today). Stuffed sooooo much food. And my face has been frickin burning alll day and I don't friggin know what's causing it! I think it's skin irritation. It's burning, and pink, and very very warm =/ Sigh. Oh and I got a surprise call from SADRINA!!!!!! I missed you wuman! Thanks for the call! I didn't recognise her voice at all, it sounded soooo perky hahaha.

Fat boy being fat :)

HAHA fatty jua banar eh.

Toldja my cheeks were burning! Had to put the two drinks on my cheeks.

Pink baju :D

Hakim refused to do the UIC pose in public haha.

Ki be ha' wuman :)

Have a guhhhhreat weekend!

2008-11-04T23:11:00.004+08:00

Nazim introduced me to Chuck Norris jokes and I got addicted and looked around the net, and these are a few:

Chuck Norris once ate a whole cake before his friends could tell him there was a stripper in it.
While urinating, Chuck Norris is easily capable of welding titanium.
Chuck Norris can divide by zero.
It takes Chuck Norris 20 minutes to watch 60 Minutes.
The Bermuda Triangle used to be the Bermuda Square, until Chuck Norris Roundhouse kicked one of the corners off.
Chuck Norris can touch MC Hammer.
For some, the left testicle is larger than the right one. For Chuck Norris, each testicle is larger than the other one.
Chuck Norris can sneeze with his eyes open.
When taking the SAT, write "Chuck Norris" for every answer. You will score over 8000.
Chuck Norris is responsible for China's over-population. He hosted a Karate tournament in Beijing and all women within 1,000 miles became pregnant instantly.
Some people wear Superman pajamas. Superman wears Chuck Norris pajamas.
When Chuck Norris does a pushup, he isn't lifting himself up, he's pushing the Earth down.

This is Chuck Norris:

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Enjoy!

I've got a physics test tomorrow :o! Can't friggin wait for NOVEMBER 21st!

2008-11-02T13:26:00.001+08:00

Click to see the new layout :)

2008-11-01T16:24:00.006+08:00

Pictures from last night :) Scroll down to see something funny hahah :p

See the envy in Kim's eyes?

Awwwwwwwww LATB reunite :)

Idako!

Hakim being.... Hakim.

And Santi being the hungry bitch, my old food-partner haha :)

Best prenggsss.

Hakim's peado face hahaha!

Can you see my eyes? Nampak kah inda dulu? God hahaha.

HAHAHA.

Ia minta gambar hahaha.

It was raining MADLY and we shared one umbrella. All five of us. Imagine that, 4 bimboes under one umbrella hahah :p

And so.. We went to Jaya to get raincoats!

And walked to The Mall in them!

Dayum, we're cool :)

And this is for you Far:

So anyhoo. I need to get checked at the clinic or something soon, I've been coughing like mad for more than a week now and somehow I think it's getting worse. I nearly even lost my voice last night. Hahahaha sexy. And there are soooo many friggin ants in my room especially this table and the toilet. No freakin idea where they're all comin from! Sheeeeesh. And and, I realise I'm like a majorrrrrrr procrastinator! I procrastinate as much as I am jablai hahahah :p

Nathan Scott is H-O-friggin-T, and Nathanial Archibald is H-O-friggin-T-T-E-R!

Yeah anyhoo I'mma work on yougotowned's layout now. Check it out in the next days to come! Later loooooooooovers.

2008-10-31T16:59:00.005+08:00

:)

I just had my Stats AS exam few hours ago and now I am just sooooooooooooooo glad it's over. Been busting my ass nearly 24/7 (hhahahah yea right) for this these few days and it's such a relief that it's over and that the paper wasn't so bad. Time to celebrate (not the ending of exams but at least the end of maths for now :p)! Not that I don't like maths. I love maths.. But whatever, tidur saja eh haha.

But anyhoo, I gotta get back to exam mode by next week cos Phys prac is comin up in a few days :( And unlucky me, I got pushed to Shift 2 instead of Shift 1 where everyone else is. There are only bout 6 of us PU1s in shift 2 I think? Shit :(

Soooooo anyway, Far, Zul, Kim and I were discussing about our future or dream homes and Zul mentioned something about a round house and I thought it was pretty cool so.. I came up with this idea:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA awu i'm jobless. But cool jua tu, buy a small land but rumah tinggi :p Baik jua the roof inda round, and I didn't draw two bushes at the side of the house. If you get what I mean.... :p HAHAH.

So like.. I admit, THE song made me think and feel again. See how songs get to your head? But I'm fine, I just wonder at times. Now actually, I was on top of the world. And along side with me at the top, was my girl.

Hmmmmm okay no emo emo. I'mma go before I start again :S Laterrrrrrrrrr amigos.

Nevermind :D

2008-10-26T09:45:00.003+08:00

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?

Sunday morning, the rain is falling.

You know there's that saying, "there is always a choice". Well if there always is a choice, why do people keep telling me that I've got only one? That one particular choice which can be so hard to go through.

Let's say.. I'm at a junction, there are two roads ahead. I know what's waiting for me at the end of the road, but I don't know how the journey will go. Both may be really bad, both may be really good, or one may be bad and the other good.

Road A: I've gone through the road before. The journey went smoothly but it was what was at the end that pulled everything back. But then there's a very slight chance they improved the roads which may lead to a good ending.

Road B: Never gone through it but I hear there's a lotta risk getting through there. But if I did get to the end of Road B, it will all be worthwile and probably really good.

So here I am at the junction.. Very stuck and not knowing where to go. I want to go through road B, because I've been getting good feedback to the road. But then there's just something pulling me and telling me to go through road A again. That certain pull may be inevitable, it'll take huge strength to overcome it. Strength I may not have right now.. I told myself not to let this get to my head, but it did and there's no turning back.

So you tell me.. Where do I go?

♥

2008-10-24T20:59:00.004+08:00

My aunt mentioned this last night.

And since N asked me what I want to see before I die..

I wanna see:

The Northern Lights
Aka Aurora Borealis

♥, Z

I'm happy if my numero uno is happy! I miss you Rab.

2008-10-21T12:45:00.024+08:00

Helllooo hellooo peds and jabz and that one jamz!

I feel like I've left my blogging duty to turn into someone mysterious which I am most certainly not. Well not to them lovers anyway. Sooo here you go, a proper update.

Let's start off with Thursday night (because I want to skip the Pure Maths and Business EOY exam parts). That night most of the LnFs, cept Eric cause he was home alone, went to Izzy's. Just a normal hangout and stuff. We ordered McD, took pics, Far and Zul were editting pics, some were watching a DVD, some were online, etc etc. Yknow just everyone doing their own thangs but together. Geddit geddit?

Haha anyhoo the highlight of the night was our first LnF ride. Don't get me wrong, we've rode together in the same car a countless number of times but this one was special, all thanks to Abang Bro and Izzy's parents for being out of the country :p We drove to Hakim's which was only very near and around the Kampong abit but it was alllll good :D Here are pics, none of the car ride though cause Far hadn't came yet. Oh and Zah was wearing her school uniform till 10.30pm hahah.

Hakim being paedo as usual.

haha (:

Ti and Ki playing with Far's iTouch.

Dora the nerd :)

Eeeeyahh wind blowing lah.

McD :D

Hafiy was there too! :D

Paper says it all :)

Thennnn that night I slept at Izzy's along with Tiqah. Okay skip skip so I slept over at Izzy's for three nights. And in those umm 4 days, we watched 7 DVDs, went out to satisfy our Buttermilk and Butter chicken craving at Nyonya, went shopping for FAT FAT FAT food, had random heart to heart talks, webcammed, fattened ourselves up, ordered DQ and got pissed haha, and spazzzzed! Ada yang belajar jua but count me out of that :p All in all I had an uberrrrr great weekend thanks to my wicked Jabbers named Izzy and Tiqah :) and my awesome group of friends.

And last night, we went Raya-ing to Rab's house. Just to visit her Mummy, family and house. Before going off to Rab's, we were at Zy's and Rab clicked on me on MSN and I had to lie to her saying I was going out with my family hahaha sorry Rab! So off we went to Rab's, with Auntie Salmah as our driver :D So after eating and stuff we went up to Rab's room.

This was our plan: Tiqah told Rab that she'd be raya-ing to Rab's with her family and so, T told Rab to come online cause ada surprise. So then ia pasang her webcam and after awhile, Zul would come in. Kiranya atu lah the suprise. So after dorang cakap cakap, which was on Skype btw, Zul and Tiqah said they had a bigger surprise. And then all of us came into the pic so yea :D

After that it was alll just so awesome. Catching up and laughing and stuff and Gee was there too with her Krispy Kreme hat! And during that time as well we took loads and loads of pics in Rab's room. Sooooo here ya go, pictures. For you, Rab.

Fat boy fat bitch.

Rab, Alai mu jadi less chung ching sudah.

Dulu manada ni Rab di rumah mu haha.

Ani pun nada!

Hahaha liat si Abang.

And again.

And again.

And again.

And again.. Btw Zy looks cute here :D

And here he is, the camera man!

Hakim the Paedo.

Kami atas katil mu Rab! :D

And I hugged your pillow :')

Skype-ing.

Rabi :')

Turqoise girls :D

Poster mu yang ku bagi hidup masih Rab :)

Girls.

Mummy muuuu! Sama Wajidah.

The legendary wait for it it mirror!

Zy's purrrrrrrrty shoes.

Ki ha'!

Rab! Ani krita si Abang baru! Ia suruh liatkan kau..

Hahahahahahha si Hakim ah!

UIC pose.

More pics HERE and HERE

Later now :)

2008-10-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

2008-10-16T17:51:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥

I'm at Izzy's :)

2008-10-14T11:33:00.003+08:00

We the people fight for our existence
We don't claim to be perfect
But we're free
We dream our dreams alone
With no resistance
Fading like the stars we wish to be

You know I didn't mean
What I just said
But my God woke up
On the wrong side of his bed
And it just don't matter now

Cos little by little
We gave you everything
You ever dreamed of
Little by little
The wheels of your life
Have slowly fallen off
Little by little
You have to give it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why
You're really here

True perfection has to be imperfect
I know that that sounds foolish but it's true
The day has come
And now you'll have to accept
The life inside your head we give to you

You know I didn't mean
What I just said
But my God woke up
On the wrong side of his bed
And it just don't matter now

Little by little
We gave you everything
You ever dreamed of
Little by little
The wheels of your life
Have slowly fallen off
Little by little
You had to give it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why
You're really here
Why am I really here?
Why am I really here?

Taking a short break for all the Maths, here's my two cents on what this song is about:

I think it's about the satisfactory of getting what you want. Little by little, you get all the things you want. We dream our dreams alone, with no resistance. But then after awhile you start thinking and regretting it because you've got everything already. Does it make you happy? It just finishes off the purpose of life, like the strive of getting what you want is gone. The wheels of your life have slowly fallen off. And then you start to question your existence, why am I really here? The day has come and now you'll have to accept the life inside your head we give to you. And you have to accept your purpose in life, which is nothing. And lastly.. True perfection has to be imperfect. That's just pure genius! Noel, you're awesome.

MY two cents. Lyrics, they make you wonder don't they?

Maths-ified.

2008-10-14T10:05:00.000+08:00

Exam mode ON.

See you on the other side.

..or maybe not.

♥

2008-10-10T21:21:00.004+08:00

So like.. I just got home after beraya-ing since 11 freakin AM. No we didn't go to much, went to Lumut and yeah a few houses in Bandar so yeah. I'm pretty beat but mhmmm gotta study. Pure AS paper in like 5 days? Business EOY the day after! :(

And.. Both families have been taking me out Raya-ing like every freakin single day so yeap, I've been neglecting my studies :(

But anyway! On Wednesday night I went beraya-ing with Kaka, Nimah, Syamim, Izzy and Izzah and it was aweeeeeeesome! Or should I say, wicked? Thanks Ka for being our awesome driver :D

First we went to Zah's, and brought her along.. :D

Haha Nimah and Zah's big cup slash flower pot thing.

Then, we went to Izzy's *coughstillsingle,interested?cough* and yeap brought her along as well!

Then we went to Nazim's. You know, that skinny guy who talks too much.. Hahahaha maaf zahir batin! :D

My ~~two~~ one awesome jabber and my awesome non-jabber :p

Then we went to Far's.. But no pictures from there sorrrrrrrrrry :D Loved your new toy though far ;)

Then we wanted to go to Hakim's but he didn't reply my text in time so.. We went to Ki's instead! :D She was doing her Business homework, haha kesian.

So yeah then sent the two girls home and by the time I got home it was nearly midnight and didn't have time to revise so.. yeah.

Oh and guess who's back from Singapooooooooooore?? MY CAMERA! :D Paparazziq is back! Hahaha.

Bah I'm gonna go revise and finish up my Physics. I'll post up open house pics nanti saja.

Signing off,

2008-10-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

Ki, this is for you :p

More pictures of my open house HERE

So I skipped school today cause I was just tired from the open house yesterday. And the tired of yesterday just added to the tired of the first three days of Raya. You get me? Haha. So after 12 long hours of sleep, I'm up and refreshed now so I'm gonna go do some revising for Maths, which bee tee double-you, is only NINE frickin days away. Sigh, back to reality now.

♥

Later lover.

2008-10-05T01:23:00.001+08:00

:)

Raya's been a blast! Even if it's tiring.

I'm having my Open House later from noon onwards so anyone who wants to come, feel free to come or text me for details. Yeah you have to know me well to have my number right?

Off to bed.

♥

2008-10-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan has come to an end, it's time to say goodbye to my indirect diet and my unhealthy sleeping pattern. Next few days are gonna be hectic and hopefully fun at the same time!

I heard the takbir just now during sungkai and nearly teared up. One word: Beautiful :)

So to friends, family, fellow Muslims and Non-Muslims that care:
SELEMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN! :)

From the bottom of this healing heart, I apologise for any any any of my wrongdoings. From the littlest white lies, the shortest words, to the largest and the deepest sins. I truly truly truly am sorry. Maybe it's nature, maybe it's an act of love, maybe I was just trying to be funny. Whatever it is, let's put the past behind. I hope you guys forgive me :) Nothing like a fresh start, right?

To everyone who're sitting for exams, enjoy the first few days of Raya, take time off! Loosen up abit. All work no play is a no-no! Can't do much harm, right? Goodluck everyone!

Yours sincerely,
Haziqah Marzuke :)

2008-09-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

So, a couple of weeks ago, us remaining LnFs had a Raya Photoshoot at Ki's place and tarus had sungkai there. The photoshoot went smoothly, cause we were doing what we do best: taking pictures! Anyway, the reason why we didn't post the pictures up sooner was cause we wanted to wait till the LnF Scholars received their Raya cards. And they did :) (cept Milang, sorry Milang inda tia surprise). So I'mma post the pictures now. Far wasn't in the pic but thanks for lending us your cam! And special thanks to Hafiy for being our partial photographer.

duyung! hahaha.

anak chungchung beraya jua :p

I ain't pregger!

The best pic of all ♥

HAHAHA jablai! :D

More HERE but suri suri, it's friends-only (:

And pictures of the cards we sent

So, Raya's in a few days. The mood has kicked in, but I still have a habit of not sleeping before sahur and waking up the earliest at noon. Helloooooo eyebags. Well, old habits die hard you see.

Andddd. Hampers galoreeee! People suuuure love to fatten us up. We've been receiving a LOT of hampers and the amount of chocolate in our house now can last us one whole year! That is, if me and Kaka don't finish up the good ones. Haha. And a new one came today FILLED with chocolate! Dayummm I booked the Lindt and the Guylian, and the Patchi hamper too. MMMM drool. Next time you guys come over here I'mma feed you guys with chocolate. Biar kamu lampuh especially Abang Bro, Tiqah and Izzah! Haha.

Rabi, I miss you! I miss complaining and telling about the littlest things to you, things that no one else (but you) cares the fuck about. I miss being paranoid about stuff that are not even worth being paranoid about. I also miss hearing your complaints and hearing YOU being paranoid. I miss always being right :p I miss deepshit-ing with you. I miss our outings, just you and me and Tiqah at times. I bet if you were here, kau minta dangani cari kasut Raya arah Vincci. Right right? Sigh I just miss you. And I miss the rest of the LnFs too. Everyone's just been too busy prepping for Raya and prepping for exams.

I gattago study now. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri in advanced, if I'm too busy then. Cheers!

2008-09-27T14:54:00.003+08:00

Meet my hippie sister :)

Happy Belated 17th Birthday Milang! xoxos all the way from Brunei ;D

4Bia was the shizznitttt. Totally worth covering my eyes with the popcorn bucket. Haha.

My late nights are not lonely :D I stupid my fellow jabber who's jablaitastic ;), the chung chung mata sepet I like ;), and abang bro fellow nocturnal ;). We're occasionally joined by FarIan, Jeer, Zah, Rab, Tiqah or Ki.

It's allll good but I miss you.

2008-09-25T02:17:00.002+08:00

I stupid you.

If you get what I mean.. :)

Te extrano you and you.

2008-09-22T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm

and I love

HAHA webcams really can cure boredom. Especially if you have someone to show it to! Sorry for being my victim Fat Boy :D

2008-09-22T01:32:00.006+08:00

Top 5 Friends of the Same Sex

I'll make that 8 ;D

Rab
Tiqah
Izzy
Qiller
Izzah
Farah
Milang
Jeer

Top 5 Friends of the Opposite Sex

I'll make that 6 ;D

Zul
Eric
Ian
Hakim
Haziq
Kyrul

On the Island…

Who jumps in the water and tries to swim home?
A: Haziq cos he da man'!

Who starts crying and saying they’re too young to die?
A: Oh wow, I wonder who. HAHA obivously RABI and HAKIM! Drama Queen and King :p

Who tries to make a raft out of grass and palm leaves?
A: The smart ones.. Hmmm Gee, Far, Ian, Milang, Far?

Who’s chasing a squirrel so they can eat it?
A: HAHHAHA RABI! Maybe Jeer jua cos she gets gastric :p And Eric cos he's Fat Boy :D

Who helps make the shelter?
A: Again, the smart ones. And prolly Haziq too.

Who becomes depressed and says that there’s no hope?
A: Me? :p Or Hakim! Or Ki! Or Eric! HAHA.

Who actually tries to think of a plan to get out?
A: Haziq, or Far or Izzah or Izzy or Abang Bro?

Who starts jumping up and down screaming?
A: Rabi, Tiqah and Ki. Our true bimboes :p Jeer too!

Who’s in denial and looking all over for the hidden video cameras?
A: HAHAHAH ummmmmmm JEER! HAHA. Or Tiqah or Eric?

Two weeks later…

A love triangle starts between 3 of the members…Who are they?
A: Rabi and one of the couples! HAHA. Nah none prolly. We're all true to each other, thanks :)

Who goes crazy and digs underground and claims they’re looking for China?
A: HAHAHA. China? *wiggles eyebrows* That would be me maybe? HAHA.

Who gets so bored they’re carving equations on a rock for fun?
A: ME ME ME! HAHAH. Or Izzah or Zul. Freaks :p

Another love triangle starts between…
A: Izzah, Zul and Eric? :p AWKWARD.

1 and 6 go missing, then you find they were making out! Your reaction…
A: Rab and Far? No surprise. Rabi gay :p

You decide to make 5 groups of 2 to split up and look for food…
Group 1: Rab and K
Group 2: Milang and Haziq
Group 3: Ian and Far
Group 4: Ziqah, Izzy and Izzah :p
Group 5: Tiqah, Jeer and Ki.
Group 6: Hakim, Zul and Eric.

Which group goes missing cause they couldn’t find a good spot for their tan:
A: 4 or 5 or 6! Jablais! If the first 3 groups went missing we'd know why!

Which group comes back after two minutes because they claim to be tired?:
A: HAHAHA group 5!

Which group actually comes back with food but takes days to find it?:
A: Oh I'm pretty sure none of the groups :p Or maybe group 4! Or 2.

Which group goofs off all the time and doesn’t do anything at all?:
A: Hahahaha group 4 or 5 :p

Suddenly a boat arrives…

Who’s actually sad and claims they’ll miss the island?
A: HAHA I think all of us would. I mean, we'll miss being with each other, right?

Who still tries to hunt squirrals even though their back home?
A: HAHHA I don't know, Eric Fat Boy? Hahaha.

What happened with Love Triangle Number 1?
A: Haha nothing, cause we know Rabi loves Kerol :)

Number 2?
A: AWKWARD! HAHAH.

What happened with the relationship between 1 and 6?
A: They both turned ungay and hooked up with Kerol and Ian.

Who mis-spells your name in a book they wrote about all of this?
A: HAHAHA ERIC! Cause he always spells it as ZEEQAH. Or Ki the bimbo :p We all know Zul won't!

Izzy answered the same one :) Go check out her answers!

N, you're soooo NOT sexy! Sheesh.

Everyone, WATCH KEITH! It's the looooove. I know I know, chick flick again :p Haha.

Love,
Ziqah Jabzz.

Goodbye.

2008-09-20T20:58:00.004+08:00

Thank you two for being so awesome these few weeks :)
Si duyung, the one with the big b***s, and the pregger (esenku).

Call us *wiggles eyebrows*

Jabzzzz.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friendS.

My Sassy Girl has become one of my most fave movies ever. The movie has some pretty memorable quotes so watch it if you can or Google up the quotes :) Excuse me for being a sucker for chick flicks. Hey, a girl needs some hope. Especially THIS girl.

I miss Little Britain. I'll go buy Little Britain Abroad soon! "Computer says no"

Raya is just around the corner and I'm partly looking forward ($$$$$$$$$$!) and partly not. I don't know, I've just sorta always had this little dislike about Raya. If you know my situation, you'd know why.

I want my fuckinggggg camera back please?

Movie with me, anyone? :)

xoxo,
veintitres

2008-09-17T22:15:00.005+08:00

Because we're all jablais. Especially the three 101% jablai girls HAHA :D ♥

Something got me missing this :(

I'mma edit this post tomorrow with more of 'I Miss' pictures :)

[edit]

New layout :)

Murrrrr pick-chaaaaaaahs. Please be noted that these are OLD pictures. I know I've gone out of the country alot this year (five times to be exact) but I miss it! Nah Zy and Zah, this'll get you excited :p

Edgware road.

Hamley's

Leicester Square.

Selfridge's

Trafalgar Square

On London Eye buiiiii.

That night I met up with Far :)

Hahahaha Fabregas!

Three-chocolate waffles Far! Remember this? Mmm.

Cookies to die for!

Coventry.

Warwick University :) Nah Kim, future uni mu. Been there, done that :p

Maigaddd London fish and chips!

IAN! Get me this when you come back! It's reeeeeeaaaaaally good!

And I miss my best friend.

A little piece of information totally swung my mood last night. It got me thinking again.. And I hate that it keeps coming back. Nyeh.

But I hope a little or perhaps a huge dose of LnF can fix it :)

2008-09-15T12:42:00.002+08:00

Three,
and still struggling.

Happy 4th Birthday Reqa!

So I went to Chung Hwa today to help out with Reqa's birthday. Maybe to see some eyecandy too 0:) I mean, in the form of lil kids bah! Oh come on, y'all know I'm paedo :)

And Happy "TwenTEEN"th Birthday Wie! Again. And Bon Voyage in advanced :)

I am sick and I am fasting. Sick and fasting do NOT mix!

:(

2008-09-12T19:22:00.006+08:00

"Sometimes me think what is love, and then me think love is what last cookie is for. Me give up the last cookie for you."
- Cookie Monster :D

To Rab, Ian, Gee, Aklimah and Bokh.

WE MISS YOU!

And Rabi, this is for you yang rindu both your gay partners :)

And Ki!

I've been telling people it's my 18th birthday today. Because it is, in Hijrah calendar :D And them lovers came over for DVD "decathalon" as Kim wants to call it, and for sungkai. And my family surprised me with a really cute and very very chocolatey cake! Thank you people ♥

[edit]

I miss you.

Dontcha all miss these nostrils?

2008-09-11T05:34:00.012+08:00

I'mma post up some picspams of the latest eps. Just because I'm jobless and it's 5AM in the morning and I'm not going to school :D

Sorry if it's spoilery.

Gossip Girl, Season 2, Episode 1

Mrawr! *Insert Izzy's orgasm face*

OMG :D To die for!

Oh dayumm I love this scene. You can totally see a hurt Chuck here. Well done Ed Westwick!

Mmmmm HAHA :p

Blair: Damn that motherChucker!
And something something Chuck Basstard.

Because that smile is just... :D

GG: Spotted: Serena and Nate in a massive display of PDA.

GG: And that's exactly what Dan Humphrey is, Pretty Damn Angry.

Dan: I missed that little laugh of yours.

And voila! He transformed into Lord Marcus of Britain!

Blair: Three words, eight letters, say it and I'm yours.
Best scene in the whole episode! That right there is a very vulnerable Chuck Bass.

D&S again (:

Gossip Girl, Season 2, Episode 2

Blair: And I love him, like very much. And not just because Tom Hanks gave him a Kleenex at Lady Di's funeral.
Blair: Revenge was so 12 hours ago!

Nate: Oh you know it's love when you start talking like an assassin.

GG: Is it the beginning of a new bro-mance?

That face! :D

Dan: Uhh.. Hello, lord.

Blair: Why? So she can warn me about the effects of too much botox?
Catherine: Blair is it? I'm Dutchess Beaton.
HAHA.

One Tree Hill, Season 6 (wow that many already? I'm a proud fan :D), Episode 1

Just follow the heart.

Peyton: You're a mess Lucas Scott. But you're my mess.

Millie: It's not that I don't love working for you ...... You're always in a good mood.
Brooke: My god, I am SO pissed right now!

Oh hot damn, this is my jam :D

Nanny Carrie you are a PSYCHOOOO.

J.Scott you make me go paedo :D

The river court.

Nathan: You turned my son into a goof, Q.

Oh hot damn, this is my jam pt. 2

One Tree Hill, Season 6, Episode 2

Jamieeee!

Jamie: And they thought the last nanny was crazy.

Haley: Hey 23, call me.

D:

J and Q.

HAHAHA ♥♥! Measuring his ears!

Deb: Hey, we just had our first real conversation.

Haley: I smell a little monster sneaking up behind me.

Haley: Besides, the only people that tear happy people down are those that are unhappy.

Nathan: I scored 35 points that night. And each basket was my own personal version of a Haley James pick-up line.
Haley: It worked.

Jamie: A little help here?

Dan: Your plan sucks.

Whoah. That's a hell lotta pictures. Took me 3 hours to finish this post! It's 8AM and I'mmmmaaa sleep. Cheers.

2008-09-10T14:35:00.003+08:00

Because Zah wanted me to update.

Yea, I'm still alive.

Enjoy Syamim's ass!

2008-09-04T17:09:00.001+08:00

Just another priceless work of art in his gallery.

2008-09-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

For a long time, I've been overruled by indecisiveness. I have things I wanna do, but I can't help but think, unconsciously, about all the consequences and possible outcomes of that action. And being the pessimist (to myself) that I am, the negative idea gets to me naturally. And being the normal Ziqah, I overthink. And thus, I never get to do that thing, and later regret it. This sucks.

By the way, Happy 17th Birthday Far! You're my friend of nearly 9 years, you know that? I don't wanna say much because I'm too tired to think, but I just want you to know that I love you alot and I care bout you, so take care of yourself now that Ian's not around. But if you can't, you know I'm always here to help so don't forget! :)

So okay, I didn't die of hiccuping like Susan on Grey's did. My hiccuping has stopped, but now it's proceeded to chest pains instead =/ Why can't I have normal illnesses like cough of flu, or better yet none at all? Sheesh.

Been feelin' abit down today, but I guess what made my day was the laughing fit I had with Hakim in Maths class. "Tepakai tepakai!" Hahaha silly Hakim! And seeing Far happy today was totally worth it too!

Okay I think this'll be my last wordy post in awhile. I think I reveal too much information. And I think I think too much :p Hahah. Till next time, prolly with pictures, cheers and Happy Fasting to all Muslims out there!

2008-08-31T19:33:00.003+08:00

In Grey's Anatomy, Meredith's stepmother Susan died because of some complication which started with hiccups.

I've been hiccuping on and off all day.

=S

And I freakin puked..

TWICE!

In a public toilet..

Self-reminder: Control food. It saves you from puking and wasting money.

Honestly, I didn't even eat much =S This tummy of mine ain't that huge when you think about it.

Completely pointless post, but whatever, I'm gonna go shower. Cheeeerio.

P.S: I still want Bakerlyn donuts.

[edit]

Pictures from this morning's breakfast thingy at my place. Then had to rush and hitch a ride from Ka Nadzie to the airport to send Bokh off. But pics of that and later will be uploaded next time. Or check Izzy's blog if she updates anytime soon :p

Eggs and sausages.

And mee too! Like, you get to cook your own choice of mee and all.

Wazien :)

I hit on my little cousins too.

Aiman! :)

Looking for the little fishes.

Girls (and a few boys) punya side because they were watching Barbie.

Ani boys. Typical.. Hahah.

P.P.S: Little Rayan's so cute! He made me go all paedo again.

P.P.P.S: We miss you Rab! And Ian!

2008-08-31T00:32:00.001+08:00

And I can't wait to fall asleep,
to slip into my dreams where we can dance upon a star..

My saturday night, well-spent!
Goodnight :)

2008-08-29T10:28:00.004+08:00

[edit, 4.44pm]

I saw Gee, Nasreen, Nadia, Hafiz and Najmi as well! :)
Eeeeeeee you guys are having so much fun! :(
[/edit]

Good morning, sunshine!
And TGIF! I had a good 11 hours of sleep :) Longest I've had in such a long time. And you know I love sleep.

I've been reminiscing a lot these few days and I went from regretful to grateful. But let's not talk so much about that..

About two years ago, Rab, Kyrul and I were, you could say, the best of friends. That was way back before they got involved with each other and ditched me *rolls eyes*. Esenku :D

K was in a relationship with a lot less love than you'd want in one. I, on the other hand, was getting over a huge huge huge mistake. And Rab, well, she was in the process of making one huge mistake. Heheh, I think we all know who it was *inserts susu si Ki* :D

So anyway, we were talking one day about yes, what else but love? I mean come on, we were like 14? 15? and in search of love. And, we made this pact wah. That we'd fall in love in a specific year. Rab's would've been 2007, mine and K's would be 2008.

Well Rab and K did find their match; each other :) At the end of 2007 and early 2008.

And me? Well.. Diam saja eh. Hahah.

I guess my whole point of telling this pointless story (heheh point of a pointless story) is that, we don't know what the future holds. See look at those two, they used to be two people who hate the guts out of each other (okay exaggerating much), who'd ucap each other constantly. And look at them now :) In love but masih bedrama pulang selalu.. Hahah. Esen saja wah tu :p So you never know who you'll end up with and how soon *looksatIzzy*. These are Travis' and Izzy's words: Love will come through, it's just waiting for you. :)

And Rab, I miss you. Glad to finally hear from you even if it was only for awhile. And I see "London, United Kingdom" on my live traffic feed, so I'm glad you scholars arrived there safely! Jangantah luan banyak shopping dulu :p Take care!

And don't think I forgot about you.

Love, Ziqah.

P/S: I want Bakerlyn donuts :( It's been months! Treat me, anyone? :p

Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours.
Awuwah, I just watched Sex and The City the movie. Shut up.

2008-08-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

I keep rereading and rereading and rereading your letter, until your words keep repeating in my head.

But that doesn't make you be back here with us, does it?

I just want that little piece of you still here with me.

I keep thinking I've lost you, but in reality you're only on a temporary leave.

I miss you already :'(

Much love..

2008-08-25T15:25:00.004+08:00

Excuse me for the over emo-ness. It's hard to say one goodbye, what more 54 goodbyes?

Time
Where did you go
Why did you leave me here alone
Wait
Don't go so fast
I'm missing the moments as they pass

I should've known better
I shouldn't have wasted those days
And afternoons and mornings
I threw them all away

Now
This is my time
And I'm gonna make this moment mine
(I shouldn't have wasted those days)
I'll take what you give me
Please know that I'm learning
I've looked in the mirror
My world's getting clearer
So wait for me
This time..

We're grown up and we don't even realise it. We've gone through alot together, our batch. Maybe not together as in being close and sharing secrets and all, but by together I mean through topical tests, mid year exams, end of year exams, qualifying exams, PMB and Olevel. Through bitchy teachers, cruel teachers, lenient teachers, and all the different teachers you can possibly imagine. Through embarrassing National Day performance and the Nday march. We may not go along so well, we may hold grudges against each other, we may also be the best of friends or anything. But we don't realise it, nearly 6 years together. We know each others' names by heart even if we've never spoken a word. We the MS Pre-U1 batch '08.

To my best friend Rab.
To fellow LnFs Ki, Ian, Gee, Milang, Nasreen, Bokh.
To ex-3H classmates Sadrina, Fifah, Erna, Anwar, Farid.
To ex-5S classmates Santi, Sarah, Wana, Zati, Nadia, Aisah, Mu'izzah, Syarifah, Cristina.
To my T1'O', Maths, Physics, GP and Bizz classmates who're leaving.
To the 54 scholarshippians.
To everyone who's leaving/left.

Don't be strangers to us. Remember all the people who made you smile, made you laugh, who made your days, gave you inspiration, maybe made you PMS-y, who you've bitched about, in whatever way made you people who you are now. Opportunity comes rarely, no matter what the chances are. So don't take this one for granted. Study hard! It'll be hard to see you people go, so many of you, but please know that we're all really proud of you. This is your time :') We'll wait for you.

Rab, I love you very much. I know I don't say it often but you know I do. Just thinking about that last moment with you makes me cry, how's it gonna be when I finally see you go tomorrow? :'( How do I shut all the memories off? All the outings, sleepovers, and just times when we'd talk and tell each other bila one of us beria. All the times when we'd be plain best friends. How am I gonna live without making more of those memories for 2 more years? I know we haven't been close this past month, but now I get why. Shit I can't believe I'm gonna miss your 18th birthday! And you're gonna miss mine! :( Keep in touch, and study hard. I'll take care of si Abang Kerol for you (or maybe it's the other way around). I love you Rab, I'll miss you ♥

Ian Chan. I'd like to thank you for being such an awesome friend these few months. It's sad that we've only gotten this close this year, and now you're leaving. I remember that day you told me you got the scholarship, how sad you were. I was sad too, but I became strong for you. I'm gonna miss our movie outings. And thank you too for being a good boyfriend to one of my bestest friends :) I'll keep my promise, I'll take care of her. I won't let her curang okay :p Even if it's with me. Take care and I'll see you in December with new Topman shirts :p I'll miss you!

Those who aren't leaving, let's be strong for each other :)

Be prepared to see me cry.
Love,
Ziqah.

2008-08-24T22:17:00.011+08:00

WARNING: MAJOR picture upload!

Last night was awesome! The dinner was a blast and the after was even better :) Though my feet hurt like hell, had blisters all over. Until at one point, I took my shoes off and walked round the banquet hall barefoot! Hahah. Zul and I were not just DJs, we were spontaneous photographers as well :p

Many many many thanks to the "Kami"s Sarah and Izzy for making the whole thing happen! You two deserve a pat in the back, or maybe more. And I hope everyone liked the songs Zul and I put together. It's trickaaaaaayyy!

Okay so I've got a total of 700 pics from Far and Kim's cameras. If anyone wants them, please pass your pendrive to me :) And make sure your pendrive is more than 1GB, cause the file is nearly 2GB tu. So urrrr yah, I'mma post 'em pics now. Enjoy!

Girls will be girls :)

Notice the feet! :p

:') Awwww. Orang single tidur saja ah.

Hotstufffffff! :p

Minus Kim and Peah, but ♥♥♥

The opening act. I got soul, but I'm not a soldierrrrr.

The "Kami"s. We owe it all to these two.

Sadrina! :) and Qayah.

Dinanananah came too!

Dee-elicious-curry, no more? Hahaha Bokh what's with the eyes.

UICs.

Candidly uncandid.

Santi♥! Thanks for the little sharing session :)

Amal Z performing.

Boys' musical chairs.

'Siapa Dulu Dapat' Bokh's vest :p

:')

UIC and their performance.

Peapot!

Kai and the band.

HAHAHAH I just HAD to put this in.

Cake cutting for August Babies and Scholars.

♥

I'mma head off to bed. Ta-ta for now!

2008-08-24T00:40:00.002+08:00

The night was about to end. Everyone were saying their goodbyes and I stood in my little corner watching them people hug, and watching them people cry. Just watching.. And later I followed with. :'(

We're at the lobby doing I-don't-know-what really.

Cheers.